the road before us

This is a pattern ... me, on my floor, procrastinating on something I want to do and know that I can indeed do. I'm just ... stuck. I wonder whether I put myself into this situation, this was inevitable, or both. No matter. It's now the problem of digging myself out of this hole and not consuming an entire package of Saltines. I have forgotten how salty these things really are. I feel that if I were a snail or a slug, I would shrivel right up/implode just at the sight. Whoo!

Anyway, I suppose not much has changed since last year. Yes, I'm getting older, and perhaps I have some better idea of where I'm going, but the future still looms, yet it is a distant fantasy. It's like the side view mirrors of the car. Objects are closer than they appear. So here I am, laptop in lap, really, typing away toward my future. The road is endless, but but I'm in need of a rest stop, and I'm not sure where that next exit will take me. At least, I think, I have over a year to figure this out. I really think that this whole double-major thing is a procrastination tactic. Story of my life, eh? At least I cop to it.

this anticipation

As 2007 comes to a close, I'm not sure what to say. This year has been amazing. It's been full of challenges, joys, and sorrows. I can only hope that 2008 exceeds this. See you in the new year, with better entries, crazier adventures, and more love.

XOXO

what do you mean 'christmas'?!

Hi all, and a very Merry (Late) Christmas. This month is definitely a little tired, and I'm not sure what to say ... it's been a great year, and perhaps, when I'm more articulate, I'll be able to write what I want to say.

This cruise was brought to you by Trader Sam's Cannibal Cafe, where we're always looking for new ways to serve you.

a tribute to things that never were

This song is amazingly haunting. Enjoy.

let's never stop falling in love

The world won't stop changing, and I can't blame it. I'd rather have it keep moving and keep going, and yeah, I don't want to stop. I desperately wish I could still be in Rome, but if I were, my life would have changed in such different ways. I wouldn't have gotten a job, I wouldn't have gone to New York, I wouldn't have lived with Kimi, and I certainly wouldn't be the same person. All of the challenges that life has put before me have been worth the struggle. Everything I am is a product of who I was. Everything I will become is all part of who I am now. Life is like a game of Jenga -- you keep building upwards with what you've already got and you pray for balance.

I'm back to having no idea of what I want from life.